Family

Christmas was good. I hadn't seen my family since the beginning of May when Kristy and I moved down here. It's weird when the people who have shaped you more than anyone else (and you've spent more time with than anyone else) start to become strangers. Distance can do that. I know it's different for everyone. Some people were always "strangers" to the rest of their families. Some, no matter what the distance, can keep the relationship going (although there will always be somewhat of a drop-off).

There just seemed to be this uncomfortable air (an "elephant in the room" so to speak) while I was with my family this year. It's as though there had been this separation and I had become so different that they didn't know how to talk to me. I do believe it was me who created this atmoshpere. I didn't mean to, it just happened.

The infrequency of phone calls, the lack of communication, no one asking deep personal questions with the only agenda being to know more about the other person have all contributed to this. And I am to blame. I know that everyone bears responsiblity, but if I want a relationship with some one, I should pursue them. God does it with me and there comes a point where I need to do it with God.... and others. Especially the people with whom I have shared more life experiences with than anyone. They are the easiest to hurt (because they have to forgive you), the easiest to ignore (they have to speak to you eventually), and the easiest to grow apart from without ever realizing it.

I should be a better son/brother in the future.